Bad desicions

Remember my constant posts about heartaches and wanting to cry? Yeah, it's normal for people to get blues every once in a while, it's normal to feel lonely, sad, to cry.
But mine happens often too, I try to brush it off, but like I said there's always something nagging at me. I have a feeling though it's more than just a 'feeling'. I don't know if this is true or not, but whenever I ask someone if they feel like this and that, they don't and I feel there's noone I can relate to. I googled it. And I don't know if it's like real or whatever, I don't know.



And http://helpguide.org/mental/depression_signs_types_diagnosis_treatment.htm

I don't know if I'm just over-analysing or over-reacting or causing drama or whatever but I just wanted reassurance and I took the test. But I don't know. I might just be delusional. I don't know. It's like there's this heavy load on my chest and it doesn't go away. It gets on my nerves. And I feel like sighing everytime but it doesn't relieve anything. And I want to cry all the time for no reason. It's just. I don't know.