I know I've posted this but I feel like it again.

You know, there's a reason they call it 'heartache'. You hear it all the time, in books, in your friend's blog, in movies, but you never actually feel it. Or you do.
When you have a heartache, which is not often, it REALLY aches. It hurts. It's hard to explain. I don't know, if it's the heart? The lungs? the stomach? Sometimes it's in the heart. Sometimes it's in the stomach. Sometimes it's in both, and that's really hard to take. But right now, what I'm feeling is in both the stomach and heart. I can't even talk right.
There are all these emotions they are, I don't know, swimming their way to the surface. It sounds really cliche but there are truly no words to describe this feeling. I'm burning with fury, yes, but the reason, I do not know. Which makes me all the more lost now. The tears are just are just trying to escape, for no reason at all. It makes me want to puke.
You can't take the feeling away, that's for sure. No matter how many tears you shed, you still can't get over it. It's natural, I guess, the feeling going away. You just want to rip apart your parents' two thousand dollar carpet, hammer on your selfish brother's iPad, just grab everything and throw it to the ground, real hard. It's - ugh - a heartache. I probably don't even make sense right now.
Right now, my heart aches so bad. You know how you have to have deep breath intakes when you're mad or upset? There have been millions of them for my past ten minutes.
I haven't missed anyone that bad, but I know the feeling when you want to see someone, you yearn for them. Justin taught me that when you yearn, you want something so bad it hurts. Yeah, it kinda feels that way. Except I don't know what I want. To be freed from this caged I have been entrapped in? The bash the shit out of the dude that's pissing me off? I don't know. But this feeling, it nags at you. It's annoying. People tell you to calm down, forget about it, but how do you? It's like an annoying rash the cannot be treated. I'm listing down all these examples, but do they even explain? No, they don't. It's just a heart ache. You just wanna scream your guts out. I think it's because I've been bottling too much feelings that the bottle is full. It just wanna explode. My heart just wants to explode.