Leisar

"I wonder, do you still think of me?" - TB

Admit it, you have felt this way too before, wanting to be wanted
We all want to feel like we're someone in this world, that there's someone who thinks of you when they wake up

I push people away, and this is not the first realisation because it has happened countless times for countless months
Everything anyone does bugs me, everyone just annoys me
This is very 'scene kid' and 'anti-social' but everyone's just annoying
They do stuff that people shouldn't do to me, and they should realise it by now
Like touch me, or get in my way
All these little things, they bother me. Once they do it, it keeps nagging at me all day and my day's just ruined, and you might even be the cause
When you've known someone for so long, and you try your best to get to know them, and all the small things you find out about them, they make you smile, until you've collected all the information you know about them and bottle them up for future reference
But one day you find out, they know nothing about you! News flash once again, NOBODY CARES
You find out nobody cares about you
For instance you follow them on twitter or something, and they're aware of it, but they don't even bother following you back! It's not a cyber thing, it's ayou're-my-close-friend and i-wanna-know-about-you thing. You expect them to want to know what's going on in your life, but they dont
This twitter thing it sounds shallow of me but it just proves that nobody really wants to get to know you
When you tweet to them, for instance, you expect a reply but alas you are left ignored and who your friend replies to, is some random classmate that can potentially be a bestfriend.
And then your friend talks to you and jokes around with you when they see you in real life, expecting acknowledgement but no you don't give them that because you weren't given it either!

Everybody's so fake and they should all drown themselves